Well Mark and I had a talk about adoption in case this comes to that with Mariah...and We have decided that it would be selfish to adopt her when so many are waiting for a child to love and we have been blessed with 3 children. We have 3 children who need us and we want to be able to provide them with the best possible life ever...and are not sure we would be able to afford a 4th child...As much as I Love this little Angel that I have been blessed to care for..and there is always a chance that someone else in her family will gain custody of her. So Adoption was a FAR FETCHED option anyways.. But something that Mark and I had to talk about. And get out in the open, our feelings... and I think it is good that we know our limitations.. TRUST ME I WOULD ADOPT EVERY CHILD IF I COULD!! But that is not possible..lol...So we will continue to LOVE her and SPOIL her like our own, while she is here.. And be blessed we were able to enjoy this part of her life with her...and Hopefully if it is meant to be she will get a WONDERFUL Forever Family..She deserves that..or maybe mom will be able to be a mommy to her and get help with the drugs...Whatever her future holds I will always be blessed we have had her in our lives even for just a little while..
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This is all so heart wrenching... I'm just selfish enough that my thinking would be that I love her so much that it is my responsibility to give her a home that I KNOW is good. (And now you know why I can't do what you so generously do! ;-) ) I'm so glad that she was blessed with you even if only for a short time!
I'm so glad she has you, if only for a short time. I'm with Dawna though, I don't think I could handle giving her up to someone I don't know after taking care of her like she was my own.
I'm glad to read that you had 'the talk' and know your limitations.
Thanks Girls for your comments...and I am sure it will KILL me not to adopt her in the end, and who knows what will happen I honestley beleive what is MEANT TO BE will happen.. I have to beleive that..I LOVE MARIAH with all of my heart and it will just ripe out my heart not to adopt her especially if it comes down to that. But I want her to have more than just LOVE, I want her to have it all, adventures and a great college if she decides to go.. I have been told by various family members that our house is too small to adopt her..We have a 3 bedroom Ranch..The boys are in a HUGE room together and Samantha has the Baby room..And Mariah because she is a newborn is in the room with us..for now..Then she will go into Sams room..Thanks But don't give me credit yet...I am really scared for that time to come if I am honest...
You have such a big heart ..........I don't think I could do what you do .....children are so hard "not to fall in love with " it would be hard to part with her I'm sure .But if you know shes going to a good home and loving family {as yours is }then you can take pride in the fact that you were there for her in her journey to a great life...:)
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